I’m creating a landscape that tells a narrative, combines some of my personal experiences with critical analysis of society and present-day events due to my PTSD, anxiety, depression and ADHD. I have a somewhat different viewpoint on the world than most people do because of some difficult and devastating events. Yet, I feel these mental statuses aren’t all negative. I can’t accurately describe what occurs to me when I’m at my lowest. I’ve attempted to express how I feel, what I see, and who I am in a painting because I can’t do it any other way. Since I’m not myself, I don’t feel or see things the same way as I usually do. I feel like I enter a different region of my brain that I don’t often do, and I wanted to depict it in my artwork.

The landscape has an illusive and dramatic feel, but I also let the audience’s eye flow naturally across the canvas so that it, at the same time, finds it disorienting by using repetitive lines around the painting apart from the middle of the canvas to give the piece a slightly moving effect. This helped the painting link and flow visually and to give a replication of how my sight changes throughout the times when I am suffering the most with my mental health.

I want to compare the elements of water, earth, air and fire into a simile of how mental health effects and builds up humanity and specifically fine art in my opinion, like the elements build up and creates the planet. I aim for others who see my work and have some relation to the work and feel they can express their emotions and articulate their experiences and help them feel they aren’t alone and they aren’t abnormal for what they have gone through.